I am not sure how many people have this same perspective, but I hate disappointments, so I try as much as possible to avoid them.. Over the years, I have kind of shifted my perception about certain things.. For example, in my undergrad when I prayed like never before and worked really hard, I practically slept in the library, all for a first class, but instead came out with a 2.1.. I was devastated.. The most annoying part was I missed a first class with about two percents.
I then kind of became a "whatever goes person" i.e. anything I have no power over, I don't really care what happens. I justified it all with the common saying "God has a reason for everything"
In church today, the pastor spoke about a woman, whose son died, and instead of taking him to the mortuary, took him home, locked the doors and entered into a heart felt praise and worship.. 24 hours later, the son was still dead.. 48 hours, still no life, after 72 hours, the son jerked back to life.
The woman must have bn really patient, and strong willed. As far as am concerned, she knew what she was aiming at, and was not gonna allow death or anything obstruct her.
This brought me back to my "free spirit" "YOLO" self.. I'm too sure if I was the one, from the hospital I would have just said "God has a reason for everything" and given up there.
Anyway, I've decided, with the help of God to learn to fight the good fight of faith. Fight with all I have, Fight for the faith I have bn taught to believe in.
I'll like to hear from anyone that has a contribution, support is needed here.
Oh I have turned to a Church prostitute :( Jumping from church to church.. I think I go to a different church every other Sunday.. :(
Pray for a sister brethren, pray for a sisteh!